Imperfection

    

   I was a perfectionist until I realized nothing is perfect.

  I used to strive for perfection, because my motivation and energy relies on peoples' need. Making sure things and situations are always in check and under my control pleases me, the feel of satisfaction surges the energy into my body. 

 But as I grow older and wiser living in this society, I finally get the big picture... You can't please everyone no matter how hard you tried. Soon I came to realization to stop pleasing everyone and just entertain my loves one because they would do the same to me too.

 Months ago I was dazzled by this woman, she is charming, sociable, beautiful, caring and on and on. There is so many ways of describing her that I lost count. Let's just cut the long story short, we are together now, as a couple. As we get along our journey I learned that relationship is not that simple, it is a hard lesson to learn. Arguments become frequent, we started to realize each others' imperfections. Our ego grew bigger, our words became obscene, our actions became little. Me, a perfectionist couldn't get things under control and let my emotion took control of me, isn't it irony? 

 Finally I get the idea of a loving relationship, I believe one must truly accept the other's imperfection to avoid unnecessary arguments. One must be able to control their emotion during hectic moments to settle a fight. One must be able to truly trust his/her partner to not hurt each other's feeling. One must stand in the others shoe to comprehend their situation. Finally as I mentioned on my first post in this blog, one must be rationalized to give each other space to get their head around and air to breathe.