I am currently 17,waiting for results to enroll into a college.I am
living in a country in the South-East Asia.My family isn't wealthy and
both of my parents are old like near their 60s.Starting from last year I
felt depressed,guilty,angry with myself and also disappointed with
myself.
The main reason why I felt depressed are because I can't repay my parents. They spent so much time,energy,resources, and also their hard work to make sure I grow up to become a successful man and more importantly a GOOD man. I did a lot of things to "hide" the fact that I did not repay my parents. I did chores ( mostly ) , spend time with my family by taking less time sitting in front of the computer and try to make my parents laugh with my awful jokes. But , doing all those doesn't seems to help my case. I still felt depressed and angry with myself.
Two month ago , I get my driving license which took a horribly long time and money. ( getting license in my country is expensive as F ) . Well so yesterday I decided to go out with my best friends and watch movies , and I needed a transport so I borrowed my mom's car. The road trip was all fine until when I was inside the parking garage, I saw a spot a tight one I and decided to squish in and guess what? the right side of my car completely kissed the pillar when I went in and left a huge scratch on the door just if I drove down another basement where there are shit ton of empty parking.After that, I felt even shittier about myself because my parents had to spend more money to repair the car and do the polishing.
All in all, I just feel like I owe a huge chuck of debt to my parents and I really do hope one day I will be fking motivated , study hard , get a diploma or degree , get out earn big cash and repay the shit out of my parents...
The main reason why I felt depressed are because I can't repay my parents. They spent so much time,energy,resources, and also their hard work to make sure I grow up to become a successful man and more importantly a GOOD man. I did a lot of things to "hide" the fact that I did not repay my parents. I did chores ( mostly ) , spend time with my family by taking less time sitting in front of the computer and try to make my parents laugh with my awful jokes. But , doing all those doesn't seems to help my case. I still felt depressed and angry with myself.
Two month ago , I get my driving license which took a horribly long time and money. ( getting license in my country is expensive as F ) . Well so yesterday I decided to go out with my best friends and watch movies , and I needed a transport so I borrowed my mom's car. The road trip was all fine until when I was inside the parking garage, I saw a spot a tight one I and decided to squish in and guess what? the right side of my car completely kissed the pillar when I went in and left a huge scratch on the door just if I drove down another basement where there are shit ton of empty parking.After that, I felt even shittier about myself because my parents had to spend more money to repair the car and do the polishing.
All in all, I just feel like I owe a huge chuck of debt to my parents and I really do hope one day I will be fking motivated , study hard , get a diploma or degree , get out earn big cash and repay the shit out of my parents...
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